What a 3 and a bit week challenge it sure has been .... no gmail access , friends from my home town arrived unexpectedly and our dog of 14 yrs passed away on Monday Morning {Technically Sunday} as he was in another country at the time ..... so it has been quite an EMOTIONAL CHALLENGING WEEK for me, mentally and spiritually, and physically, too ....
I have been "consistently erratic "over the last few weeks ,LOL
MY FOOD JOURNAL Has had no complete entries since week 11 !!!!!!!!!! {I am currently at the end of week 15}
EXERCISE, WHAT !! EXERCISE ???. besides cleaning the house, cutting the grass, and grocery shopping, there has been no !! 1 hour of any exercise that raises the heart rate in any form or shape ,unless sex counts???? ,hahaha{ oops ,sorry maybe I should not have added that bit in }
NO SCALE.. the only contact I had with it was bumping my toe every morning on it when I went to the loo .
NO MEASURING ... Did have a thought every now and again to hang myself with the tape measure though, hahaha { only kidding } I did not have a comment for this heading ...;LOL
I have been so good and on track for weeks now, and no amount of emotional upheavals i nthe past 11 weeks shook me or broke me, but last weeks tragedy with my little miniature Daschie, passing away so suddenly , broke my stronghold on so many levels... I ate a WHOLE HUGE TOBLERONE ALL BY MYSELF to drown my sorrows, and then the added frustration of no internet access ,and my sons final matric exams ,tipped me over the edge into a huge depression, of whatever !! who cares!! ...life is hard... blah blah blah !! lol .... So I just let everything go, closed the door to the study, did not have contact with friends on my phone, nor Ipad ,not lap top , no journal entries for Duromine, no D tablets, no water, hardly any nutritious food...meat, chicken potato, rice, tortillas, hot chocolate, Chocolate and Donuts were my staple diet ...my men could eat like this every day ,they thought it was xmas every day in the house, hahahahaha.. but my body was starting to shut down on me, at a rapid rate, soooo tired, moody, sore joints, headaches, "sugar pimples " the list goes on and on .... By week 13 I tried to get my head back into it but my heart was nowhere near it , to sore and raw and sad , missing my "PICKLES " terribly ... Tried to eat right for three days in that week THEN FAILED MISERABLY FOR 6 days after that ,as friends arrived from my old hometown in my old country ,and we went sightseeing ,star gazing and into an eating frenzy , trying "ALL THING AUSTRALIAN "...END of week 14 I tried to put my big Girl pants on and and ate right for three days ,washed windows, huge long double story ones, so got a good cardio workout with that , now week 15 and here I am BAck in the land OF REALITY , AND PURPOSE ,and driven to get back on track and conquer my demons ..all donuts, chocolate, chips, and sausages are in the bin .... Got on the scale this morning to see the "damage " and I was 99.3kg so a LOSS but not a good one at all, by now technically I should be 10-15 kg if not 20 kg down , it has almost been 4 months ..and I am not even at a 10 kg goal weight loss mark yet... so this has been a very good wake up call for me...I DO NOT like the place I go to when I have no control over my life or myself, so this is a life lesson learnt ... Hubby is setting up an exercise regime for me for the next 4 weeks boot camp style , and I have to go by the new grocery list of foods today, NO CARB month for me for brekkie or dinner and ALL WATER , and REST ..This month has to count for the last 2 months of wasted half hearted effort ....BRING IT ON I SAY .... this goal weight target is for you this month Pickles , love and miss you everyday, but will never forget your love, bark, and funny habits ,they remain deeply pressed on my heart , woof !!woof !!old faithful friend, till we meet again in doggy heaven ...... HOPE YOU ARE ALL HAVING A BETTER WEEK, AND MONTH than me, and if not well I am here to walk WITH YOU and plod along to the finish line no matter how long it takes ...Schmick,Shelly is me, and Hotfizz I HOPE YOU ARE ALL WELL missed you ladies , and Kate, it is so good to be back here on your forum ,and here what you have to share with us all ..
I have been "consistently erratic "over the last few weeks ,LOL
MY FOOD JOURNAL Has had no complete entries since week 11 !!!!!!!!!! {I am currently at the end of week 15}
EXERCISE, WHAT !! EXERCISE ???. besides cleaning the house, cutting the grass, and grocery shopping, there has been no !! 1 hour of any exercise that raises the heart rate in any form or shape ,unless sex counts???? ,hahaha{ oops ,sorry maybe I should not have added that bit in }
NO SCALE.. the only contact I had with it was bumping my toe every morning on it when I went to the loo .
NO MEASURING ... Did have a thought every now and again to hang myself with the tape measure though, hahaha { only kidding } I did not have a comment for this heading ...;LOL
I have been so good and on track for weeks now, and no amount of emotional upheavals i nthe past 11 weeks shook me or broke me, but last weeks tragedy with my little miniature Daschie, passing away so suddenly , broke my stronghold on so many levels... I ate a WHOLE HUGE TOBLERONE ALL BY MYSELF to drown my sorrows, and then the added frustration of no internet access ,and my sons final matric exams ,tipped me over the edge into a huge depression, of whatever !! who cares!! ...life is hard... blah blah blah !! lol .... So I just let everything go, closed the door to the study, did not have contact with friends on my phone, nor Ipad ,not lap top , no journal entries for Duromine, no D tablets, no water, hardly any nutritious food...meat, chicken potato, rice, tortillas, hot chocolate, Chocolate and Donuts were my staple diet ...my men could eat like this every day ,they thought it was xmas every day in the house, hahahahaha.. but my body was starting to shut down on me, at a rapid rate, soooo tired, moody, sore joints, headaches, "sugar pimples " the list goes on and on .... By week 13 I tried to get my head back into it but my heart was nowhere near it , to sore and raw and sad , missing my "PICKLES " terribly ... Tried to eat right for three days in that week THEN FAILED MISERABLY FOR 6 days after that ,as friends arrived from my old hometown in my old country ,and we went sightseeing ,star gazing and into an eating frenzy , trying "ALL THING AUSTRALIAN "...END of week 14 I tried to put my big Girl pants on and and ate right for three days ,washed windows, huge long double story ones, so got a good cardio workout with that , now week 15 and here I am BAck in the land OF REALITY , AND PURPOSE ,and driven to get back on track and conquer my demons ..all donuts, chocolate, chips, and sausages are in the bin .... Got on the scale this morning to see the "damage " and I was 99.3kg so a LOSS but not a good one at all, by now technically I should be 10-15 kg if not 20 kg down , it has almost been 4 months ..and I am not even at a 10 kg goal weight loss mark yet... so this has been a very good wake up call for me...I DO NOT like the place I go to when I have no control over my life or myself, so this is a life lesson learnt ... Hubby is setting up an exercise regime for me for the next 4 weeks boot camp style , and I have to go by the new grocery list of foods today, NO CARB month for me for brekkie or dinner and ALL WATER , and REST ..This month has to count for the last 2 months of wasted half hearted effort ....BRING IT ON I SAY .... this goal weight target is for you this month Pickles , love and miss you everyday, but will never forget your love, bark, and funny habits ,they remain deeply pressed on my heart , woof !!woof !!old faithful friend, till we meet again in doggy heaven ...... HOPE YOU ARE ALL HAVING A BETTER WEEK, AND MONTH than me, and if not well I am here to walk WITH YOU and plod along to the finish line no matter how long it takes ...Schmick,Shelly is me, and Hotfizz I HOPE YOU ARE ALL WELL missed you ladies , and Kate, it is so good to be back here on your forum ,and here what you have to share with us all ..
