Thoughts

I've been thinking about this whole Duromine journey and I know I could achieve great things with its help. I just need to remind myself that everything must want this, every part of my body must want to change; to be healthy. Every fibre in my being must enable me to achieve this. I think it's about my body wanting to do this, it's about my heart wanting to do this and it's about my brain wanting to do this. I need to understand this. I've realised that in the past when I'd lost weight, I'd done so with only half of my being. I always thought it was about changing your mindset and once you'd achieved that, you could reach your goals. But looking back, I think I was wrong. My heart didn't want it, only my body wanted it. I only ever wanted to look good- to be skinny. I didn't lose weight for me, I lost weight for everyone else. I was losing weight so the first thing people would see was my personality, for people to not be ashamed to walk next to me; I was losing weight so I could be an equal and not be disadvantaged at the start line.

This time I need to lose weight for me. I need to lose weight for my health, my future, my life. I won't get anywhere if I continue to think that losing weight will make people like me more, I must think that being healthy will make me like myself more. A healthy mind is a healthy body, isn't that what people say? Once I begin to appreciate myself, I can finally understand how living a healthy lifestyle is also important. I'll understand that doing all these positive things in my life is a way of loving and taking care of myself, for myself.

Duromine will help me, so I need to help it too.