Hi all, my name is jess, im 25, 178cm and from tasmania.
I have been on 30mg for 5 days now.
I feel pretty good, standard thirsty, sleep slowly improving, keep forgetting lunch.
I purchased a set of scales today, i have not weighed myself in years and i am so so afraid if getting on them in the morning. I am petrified of seeing a 3 digit number like i am sure i will.
I have struggled my whole life with my weight, by the time i was 14 i was a size 24 and weighed 124kg. I had a horrible time with it in school, kids can be horrible, and by the time i was 15 i had developed anorexia and bulimia. By the age of 16 i weighed 63kg and that is the smallest i have ever been. Unfortunately i did damage and due to health issues i gained the weight back by the time i was 19.
I then turned to the gym a pt and eating properly. I got back down to 75kgs and i looked great, my mum started calling me xena because i was so strong and i was really happy with myself.
Then came a bad relationship and my pt left the gym.
6 years and 3 abusive relationships later i find myself here, desperate to not spend another summer unable to cool off swimming with my friends and covered in a maxi dress and cardigan, looking frumpy, fat, miserable and overheating.
I am determined to do this, i just need to get on the scales in the morning and face my demons. I am so, so afraid.
Wish me luck. Xx
I have been on 30mg for 5 days now.
I feel pretty good, standard thirsty, sleep slowly improving, keep forgetting lunch.
I purchased a set of scales today, i have not weighed myself in years and i am so so afraid if getting on them in the morning. I am petrified of seeing a 3 digit number like i am sure i will.
I have struggled my whole life with my weight, by the time i was 14 i was a size 24 and weighed 124kg. I had a horrible time with it in school, kids can be horrible, and by the time i was 15 i had developed anorexia and bulimia. By the age of 16 i weighed 63kg and that is the smallest i have ever been. Unfortunately i did damage and due to health issues i gained the weight back by the time i was 19.
I then turned to the gym a pt and eating properly. I got back down to 75kgs and i looked great, my mum started calling me xena because i was so strong and i was really happy with myself.
Then came a bad relationship and my pt left the gym.
6 years and 3 abusive relationships later i find myself here, desperate to not spend another summer unable to cool off swimming with my friends and covered in a maxi dress and cardigan, looking frumpy, fat, miserable and overheating.
I am determined to do this, i just need to get on the scales in the morning and face my demons. I am so, so afraid.
Wish me luck. Xx
