Hi ALL,
well it has been a couple of weeks since I last checked in with you all,been a full on month, would love to say it was because I was exercising, and making healthy meals, etc ...Sadly it WAS NOT ... Firstly MY HEAD was in the right place 100% for the first time in a long while, had set out goals and plans for Jan to be a 100% challenge and goal set for the rest of the year.. Then came a gardening accident, which set me back a week as I was out of action, without the use of my left hand, could not do any rowing , or walking, as soon as the blood pumped into my hand the pain was excruciating, it was so bad I could not drive or hold a cup.. SO I had to accept that I was defeated and had to rest my hand so it could heal...In that week, I decided NO D, and did not write in my journal, once ,it was a very humid and hot week, SO ICE CREAM and GINGER BEER were on the list of things to eat and drink, yes FOR THE WHOLE WEEK... MY head space had gone Awal ..MY BODY NEEDS TO KEEP MOVING ,as it activates a trigger mechanism in my brain ,to NOT eat out of boredom,frustration, happiness, sadness etc etc ,lol ... Just as my hand got better .. I ran up the stairs last week and then came down stairs to do a quick 5min ROWING session ,to get my head space back, somehow in that 5 min ACTIVITY STINT, I managed to pull my Achilles tendon, and bruise it real bad ,to the point of being able to WALK.... so hop along Cassidy was on her BUTT again for another WHOLE WEEK ,only ONE entry in my food and exercise journal for that week..ate better ,but did not weigh, or count calories , and the scale was an ornament in my bathroom... BUT as life goes... THOSE TWO WEEKS of "hell and shame " Were rekindled to a "positive, and motivated "week for me this week, as while I was out of action, my hubby and son were exercising everyday, and eating right .which at the time did NOT make it easier for me to deal with myself and my shortcomings , but it did keep me focussed on what I had to do and what I have set out to do over the last 31 weeks of my NEW life style...Monday I WENT BACK ONTO D first few days nothing really changed, I had to fight my hunger, for the first time in 31 weeks, which was NOT GOOD feeling at all, I was not as thirsty as before when on D, WHICH DID NOT HELP AT ALL ..I did weigh my food and eat all my calories, still no exercise as my heal is still inflamed and swollen and the inflammatory drugs are not working as fast as I hoped, but that could be because I am NOT resting but on my feet most of the day,IT IS DAY 4 TODAY, and this was the first morning I was NOT hungry, and I was very thirsty, but my energy levels are at an all time LOW, even on D I have been in bed by 10pm, and wake up so very tired and not motivated at all .. MY thyroid meds, have definitely given me more of an appetite since THEY UPPED the dosage, and I am not making excuses for my binge eating and drinking two weeks ago ,but I believe my thyroid meds might have triggered my appetite as my metabolism is now fully functional, it would have been gr8 if I was exercising and eating right, but not while I have been out of action, ETC ... I an hoping to start exercising on the weekend, if not by Monday at least ,taking it slow, weigh in is Saturday, I am not sure what it will be up or down or the same, as I have been receiving compliments about my body and looking thinner, yet I am feeling my fattest and bloated etc, hahaha.. I put a belt on this morning that I have not worn in 7 yrs , it fits comfortably in my waist, but the sad thing is ,it is a HIPSTER belt, hahahah.. so I know my HIPS have to be the size of my WAIST soon, that will be CONSIDERED progress !!..but for now I am actually chuffed with myself that the belt fits my waist, as 32 weeks ago I could not even get it around my waist , yup !!! FAT AS !!!!.... I hope all of you have been doing well, and remained positive on your bad days and never give up...May February be a better month for me ,and may I learn from this experience and remember that it really is no worth going off track, 100% when you could be dong 50% of good for your body and mind ..HAVE AN AWESOME ,EXCITING, FUN , HAPPY WEEKEND ALL .. CHAT AGAIN SOON, missed you all, good to be back ...
well it has been a couple of weeks since I last checked in with you all,been a full on month, would love to say it was because I was exercising, and making healthy meals, etc ...Sadly it WAS NOT ... Firstly MY HEAD was in the right place 100% for the first time in a long while, had set out goals and plans for Jan to be a 100% challenge and goal set for the rest of the year.. Then came a gardening accident, which set me back a week as I was out of action, without the use of my left hand, could not do any rowing , or walking, as soon as the blood pumped into my hand the pain was excruciating, it was so bad I could not drive or hold a cup.. SO I had to accept that I was defeated and had to rest my hand so it could heal...In that week, I decided NO D, and did not write in my journal, once ,it was a very humid and hot week, SO ICE CREAM and GINGER BEER were on the list of things to eat and drink, yes FOR THE WHOLE WEEK... MY head space had gone Awal ..MY BODY NEEDS TO KEEP MOVING ,as it activates a trigger mechanism in my brain ,to NOT eat out of boredom,frustration, happiness, sadness etc etc ,lol ... Just as my hand got better .. I ran up the stairs last week and then came down stairs to do a quick 5min ROWING session ,to get my head space back, somehow in that 5 min ACTIVITY STINT, I managed to pull my Achilles tendon, and bruise it real bad ,to the point of being able to WALK.... so hop along Cassidy was on her BUTT again for another WHOLE WEEK ,only ONE entry in my food and exercise journal for that week..ate better ,but did not weigh, or count calories , and the scale was an ornament in my bathroom... BUT as life goes... THOSE TWO WEEKS of "hell and shame " Were rekindled to a "positive, and motivated "week for me this week, as while I was out of action, my hubby and son were exercising everyday, and eating right .which at the time did NOT make it easier for me to deal with myself and my shortcomings , but it did keep me focussed on what I had to do and what I have set out to do over the last 31 weeks of my NEW life style...Monday I WENT BACK ONTO D first few days nothing really changed, I had to fight my hunger, for the first time in 31 weeks, which was NOT GOOD feeling at all, I was not as thirsty as before when on D, WHICH DID NOT HELP AT ALL ..I did weigh my food and eat all my calories, still no exercise as my heal is still inflamed and swollen and the inflammatory drugs are not working as fast as I hoped, but that could be because I am NOT resting but on my feet most of the day,IT IS DAY 4 TODAY, and this was the first morning I was NOT hungry, and I was very thirsty, but my energy levels are at an all time LOW, even on D I have been in bed by 10pm, and wake up so very tired and not motivated at all .. MY thyroid meds, have definitely given me more of an appetite since THEY UPPED the dosage, and I am not making excuses for my binge eating and drinking two weeks ago ,but I believe my thyroid meds might have triggered my appetite as my metabolism is now fully functional, it would have been gr8 if I was exercising and eating right, but not while I have been out of action, ETC ... I an hoping to start exercising on the weekend, if not by Monday at least ,taking it slow, weigh in is Saturday, I am not sure what it will be up or down or the same, as I have been receiving compliments about my body and looking thinner, yet I am feeling my fattest and bloated etc, hahaha.. I put a belt on this morning that I have not worn in 7 yrs , it fits comfortably in my waist, but the sad thing is ,it is a HIPSTER belt, hahahah.. so I know my HIPS have to be the size of my WAIST soon, that will be CONSIDERED progress !!..but for now I am actually chuffed with myself that the belt fits my waist, as 32 weeks ago I could not even get it around my waist , yup !!! FAT AS !!!!.... I hope all of you have been doing well, and remained positive on your bad days and never give up...May February be a better month for me ,and may I learn from this experience and remember that it really is no worth going off track, 100% when you could be dong 50% of good for your body and mind ..HAVE AN AWESOME ,EXCITING, FUN , HAPPY WEEKEND ALL .. CHAT AGAIN SOON, missed you all, good to be back ...
