I think the answer is different for us all ,but I can only say that for most us , we do not want to put back the weight we have lost ,as it happens time and time again, this time you need to just make a choice, that your fat is not going to beat you this time round, and work on having a good head space as much as possible, as we al have negative days, but it is about using the tools you are given on this forum and the D ,that helps you sift through all your weak points on your past journeys. You need to be brutally honest with yourself ,this time Audra Blue, and know that it is not D, or oUr views ,or our challenges and goals that will KEEP you thin, when you leave, and are at goal weight , it is YOU that will keep you thin, and at goal weight and maintain it.we all slip up, it is an ongoing battle but one must get to a place ,and know that you will never just give up again and let it go back to what you were ,EVER again .. No one said it would be easy but only You can make this work for you for the rest of your life, there is more to this way of eating and exercise, it is not just the pill and a diet, but your mind and emotions that you need to work on and fight daily while losing your fat.. All the best to you .. you can do it, just make that change in your head and you set to go... Try to avoid the negative and failure in your head, before you have really started , baby steps girl !!! slow, steady ,maintain Balance, in your life and your body, as much as possible, this is my challenge to find Balance, and each week I get closer, I have had bad weeks and gr8 weeks, but each week is a success as my mind is getting stronger and i am coming to grips with myself ,the enemy, not food, not fat, but me and my mind,and my daily living, once we focuss on the cause of our weight issues, we overcome ALL other areas easier.. keep going .believe you can that's the key ,