Jeesh BABE you have no idea how I can relate. Im the only child and not really close to my folks - they just do their own thing and dont really have much interest in my life other than when need be. My mom has been overweight MY entire life (she had me at 20 and kinda slowly let go of herself after that) yet she points out every single kilo I gain and bear in mind she knows how unhappy I get when I gain weight. Dont want it to sound like she unnecessarily blasts me with criticism (I hardly see them haha), just mean she makes very sure I am aware of the fact that my jeans are at their max! Which I hate and she knows. Sigh, anyhoo........
As for your ex - babe Im so sorry to hear that, I know how hard it is at the start of rebuilding your life and with two kids in tow. Worst part: mom's don't have the luxury of falling apart - we need to be the foundation of our home - which means we have to deal with everything falling apart around us. I remember the day I left my husband after years of treating me like sh1t (catalyst event was two days before my 30th birthday when I was screamed at about not "appreciating" flowers sent to my office and how "no fkn wife would be so heartless"): I packed a bag to spend the night with a friend. I remember sitting there looking at my 6 month old baby and my 2 year old and knowing one has to stay with him the night and one can come with me otherwise I wont have a single moment to sort my thoughts. It half killed me. Very glad its behind me. It doesnt go away - they stay in the background for as long as your kids are small - but at least its ad hoc crap now, and not constant like when you stay together.
NEXT: anxiety....babe if there was an accreditation for stress I would have a doctorate. Been like that my whole life - which was great in my university days since I would like start studying for exams 3 months in advance lol - no, not a loser just scared of failing - but a frekkin nightmare as an adult because my daughter's ADHD makes life hard. And the constant bitching from the ex doesnt help either. Loooooooooooord dotn get me starting at attempting to DATE again either!!!! Thats a story for another day.
So, my tips from my limited experience so far: still eat (dont eat nothing, will make you shaky), drink the pill early and drink tons of water. That seems to help me so far. The first attempt was awful, so the second time around Im following all the advice I read on this forum.
And LASTLY: there is nothing sad about enjoying food and wine after working all frekkin day and managing two kids alone. Jeesh drinking less wine has been harder than giving up smoking!!! BUUUUUUUUUUUUUT just think how awesome we gonna feel come summer time and we rock those shorts??? Much better than any wine
