Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Ladies!! Finally a chat group that actually has some people CHATTING on it! This site is so quiet!
Ok so this is me: divorced mom of 2, boy (6) and girl (7)....yes 20 months age gap EEK *lol* turning 36 in November - WHY OH WHY???? - who is just tired of having to starve myself to lose just a little bit of weight. I guess you can say I dont have a great body image - I make myself very very unhappy when I dont feel good about my weight and it affects all other areas of my life when I get this miserable - but I just hate having to scratch through piles of awesome work clothes etc every morning which I cant squeeze into anymore yet refuse to throw out because I still love them, etc. So I just want to feel better about myself again. I also tend to comfort eat and I have a petite bone structure which means aevery single ounce of weight I gain shows immediately - my mother is the first to point this ou tto me lol.
So I joined the forum when I started on 30mg in July 2017. I was very worried about possible side effects, so I walked around with the script in my handbag for probably 2 months before actually going to the chemist. Also wanted to wean myself of anxiety meds - which I had been on for over 2 years as opposed to "just temporary" as initially intended (started shortly after my divorce because I was really struggling to cope alone with two small kids, one of which has ADHD and a manipulating ex husband on the side line). I was on the 30mg for about 3/4 weeks with a day off here and there (usually over a weekend) but I had a REALLY REALLY hectic time that same month with my ex husband, my daughter having issues at school, money worries etc so I just couldn't handle the "extra" anxiety - plus the lack of sleep was INSANE on top of an already exhausting life.
TO ADD INSULT TO INJURY I dont regard myself as a big drinker, but hey every girl needs a glass of Merlot now and then especially when you finally get to sit and catch up with a friend, but oh my what a bad idea when you're one these pills..... trust me, if you are even remotely considering having a glass of wine (or two) now and then I can tell from personal experience NOT TO. You will feel just awful the next day - whatever is in the pill really really doesnt want you mixing alcohol with it ever regardless of how little.
Im generally quite a bad sleeper and can get quite anxious WITHOUT the meds - I am a worrrier I know, I know - so I'm still struggling with those two side effects. I am awake at 3am EVERY night - drink some water, wee for the 146th time for the day and then kinda snooze again till just before 5am. By 5 not even a tranquiliser could get me to sleep more, not that I've tried that! So I just get up and keep myself busy.
But this time round I am havign a lot more water and I can definitely say it helps. Not the sleep part *sigh* but most definitely less anxious.
How's everyone else doing? Do you gals have a weigh in day or are you taking measurements instead? I havent weighed yet - feeling bit bloated so dont want to demotivate myself. Gonna try and go by how my clothes fit for now.
xx