Hi, first time on a forum of any kind. I figured if I write on here it can also be my journal of progress also. I hope that's ok?
I had never heard of Duromine until my doctor gave it to me yesterday.
About 10 years ago I managed to lose & maintain a weight loss of 40+ kilos by seeing a dietitian every two weeks for two years.
Then I was prescribed an anti-psychotic medication (for a disorder where I have heightened emotions & sensitivity) and the weight gain side effect was astronomical. But it was actually a positive thing for me mentally, as I wasn't prepared for life as a size 10. I know it sounds weird, but I was more critical of my body back then than I am now. I was obsessed.
After I got off the anti-psychotic medication I was able to lose about 20kilos but harder to keep off. I found that if I wasn't going to the gym every day and starving myself, I'd gain weight.
Ok, fast forward to now. I gained 10kilos over the past 18 months because that's when I met my boyfriend. All of a sudden i'm going out for dinner a lot, we're drinking alcohol every night... and my general healthy eating went out the window.
I've been seeing a dietitian for 12months. I see her every 2-3 weeks. Having someone to be accountable to is very handy for me!
No weight loss!
Up and down by 2 kilos over an entire year! The positive sign is that I know I would have gained weight if I hadn't been seeing her. The sad thing is that I realised I'm not young any more. The amount of hard work I've been putting in worked for weight loss ten years ago, but now I'm getting older & it's becoming harder.
My knees hurt at times. That never happened when I was young!!
So I went to see my psychiatrist about decreasing my anti-depressants to kick start my weight loss. And it worked big time! Wow! Halved my medication and my healthy eating and daily gym sessions were actually working!! ... until my depression returned. Binge eating. Emotional eating. No care factor to go to the gym. No will power. And the weight came back. Sigh.
So back to the psychiatrist and we decided it's better to be happy & I returned to my regular dose.
Back to square one. My physio said to help my sore knees I really need to lose weight, no shit Sherlock! Sore knees & back pain is not a part of obesity that is fun.
Physio has been great though. She showed me a better way to do squats & lunges so I'm looking after myself at the gym.
My GP asked me to come in so we can re-cap all the stuff with my psychiatrist. Go over his notes and so forth. That was a couple of days ago.
He suggested Duromine. But he said he'd like permission from my dietitian first as he didn't want to interfere with her plan with me. So I emailed her, she is obviously reluctant but she's ok with it provided it's very short term and provided mixing it with my antidepressants and mood stabiliser will be ok. My GP also warned me that it was super expensive.
Whilst I was at the GP he picked up on me whinging about my left knee. Haha. I'm not subtle... anyway, he poked and prodded and bent and stretched and said I have arthritis. I burst into tears.
One of my students is a nurse and said I should get an xray to monitor knee deterioration. Far out, what a roller coaster.
Yesterday was day one of a 30mg pill. The placebo effect was awesome. Even though I know deep down I was hungry yesterday, I convinced myself that I wasn't. I'm so motivated by this new option I've been given that I ignored the hints of hunger with gusto!
At a BBQ yesterday I stayed away from the cheeses & dips like a pro!! Woohooo!
And then it was bed time! :-/
I am a pro sleeper. I'm out in a matter of seconds. I'm always tired during the day. I'm always yawning from about 4pm or 5pm. It's just me and the mental health medication. I'm used to it, it is what it is. My boyfriend & I both assumed that Duromine would turn me into a normal sleeper, but holy moly!!! Wow! Last night was intense!! Nothing could have prepared me for that lack of sleep.
So I jumped online to investigate what people say about Duromine & sleep. I read in this forum that it will most likely sort itself out in a few days and it will help if I increase my exercise. So let's see how I go!!!
I can't believe I've just written an essay. Wow. How self indulgent.
I'm conscious that I must sound like one of 'those' people by seeing so many specialists. Urgh!! I hate those people!
Anyhoo! I guess I should weigh myself today to get a starting point. I think it's around 91-92kgs.
Here goes!!!
xxx
