Hi April,
What a lovely reply, thank you.
I'll post my fatness as I call it lol after my first 2 weeks and hopeful loss.. I will tell you that I am over 100kg.. not my proudest moment for sure. I'm on day 3 of 40mg. I'm used to the side effects and always get pretty much all of them but not too harshly. I'm pretty strong minded and logical - just not with fatness it seems lol
My goal is to try and lose anything at all.. I'll be happy with anything. My diet is meal replacement shakes with fruit or low carb/cal/salt/fat soup in between or when I get that empty feeling. I have a 3-500 calorie meal for dinner and usually a hot milo as it's low gi. Water is my hardest thing... I struggle to drink it as I'm weird and don't feel thirsty unless it's a raging hot day if I've overdone physical activity which lets face it.. at my size.. isn't a regular occurrence. The shakes I use can be mixed with water and taste very nice so I mix extra, so 500ml of water instead of the recommended 200mls with it. That's twice a day so I'm getting a litre of water at the very least. I know it should be at least 2-3 litres but going by my urine colour (sorry tmi, don't think I'm weird lol) I'm doing ok. It could be better... but that's a work in progress.
I try and excercise but I suffer horrid sciatica that flares up at the most random times (not caused by my weight according to my doc) so walking is out, unless I'm having a good day. It gets me frustrated that I can't walk much sometimes and I try push through the pain just to move my butt and do things with the kids etc. I'm actually a very fit fatty lol I can walk (on good days) for hours and my actual natural walking pace is quite fast. My innards as I call them lol are all healthy. Liver, kidneys, heart etc I have regular tests as .. well I'm past 40 now so the docs sorta wait for things to go downhill lol I do try and spend time outside being somewhat active/off my butt, and play with my dogs. And I plan to do some home Zumba as soon as the side effects calm down and back off a bit.
Thanks for the support and the condolences. It's still a hard time in regards to losing my son but I've accepted that is how it will be forever and I'll never be ok. Life goes on, it just does. I'm actually a little proud that I refused to let my grieving make me binge eat etc I have put on 10 kg since having him last August but not from food for once. I'll admit my booze intake has been more than it usually was but that too has now been cut to a night out once a fortnight.
I sound like I have my stuff sorted somewhat lol doesn't feel like it but that's that
with everything in this life, you just take it a day at a time I say. I try my best to find joy and show happiness. As I've always been a happy person, love to laugh and hope I make others laugh even if it's not with me lol but it's all positive. I just try to choose happiness as much as i can so sadness can't rule my entire life. Good days and bad days are all par for the course.
Sorry for the rambling! Duromine side effect 7 million and 3 lol I get a bit chatty hyper sometimes. Then there's times I really just can't be bothered thinking of writing anything. It's definitely an odd little pill to be on. My kids are dealing with the forgetfulness one minute then an hour or so later I'm on top of everything and in their faces to do the same lol
Anyway.. thanks again